SAD...

I woke up this morning after 1:00 am because I had a horrible dream....one of those that are just soooo real that you can't go back to sleep.  It. Was. That. Bad.  It was so bad that it made me wish that my husband wasn't a cop.  So bad that I immediately sent him a text (knowing that I might wake him) telling him how much I love him and how happy I am to be where we are in life.

I finally fell back asleep around 4:30 am and was so tired when my alarm sounded at 6:00.  I knew then that it was going to be a long day.  I was at one of my high schools before 8:00 and spent the entire day presenting an Oklahoma Promise workshop to over 270 9th and 10th graders.  I didn't leave town until 3:00 pm and made it back to D town in time to read a few scholarships and prepare for seeing my students off to a student leadership conference. 

I finally made it home a little after 5 and must admit that I was so tired that I let the kids play the wii while I catnapped for 30 minutes....I need my mommy card revoked.  Once I woke up I decided that I would check facebook (yeah, I'm that addicted) and noticed a post from a former TRIO professional  that led me to believe that  a TRIO program in Oklahoma had been lost.  It is always sad when this happens....students that need services will no longer be able to receive the support and guidance that they need and deserve, coworkers have to leave jobs that they believe in and have invested so much blood, sweat, tears and time.  The saddest part for me is that these are people that I care about and I know that they are the kind of professionals that do the job for the all of the right reasons....and it makes me sad because there are students who depended on their guidance, but I'm just SAD because they are people that I LOVE. 

I am just soooo SAD. 

It's going to be a long 10 days...

it's only been two days and I'm tired.  Really tired.  I sure hope the hubs comes back with a ton of ground antelope...that it the only thing that will make me running around like a crazy person worth it. 

Today was a pretty lazy day....I've managed to get all of the laundry finished and put away, watch a little football and pick up the ingredients for dorito casserole.  Guess I'll get off the rear and make it. 

This week is going to fly by...I have a ton going on and just hope that I can keep it all organized. 

The things that I dislike about hunting trips....

I'm preparing for a week+ of lonely...ok it's not that bad, but there are some things that I am going to miss for the next 10 days.

*kisses
*hugs
*winks
*smiles
* rear taps...it's the coach in him....I always get at least one "good job" pat a day.
*softball/baseball expertise at Blue Angel practices
*jokes at my expense
* his voice :( 
*lunch dates
*snuggles
*the good stuff...lol!

So I guess this list really has nothing to do with hunting trips....it is just away time. So I guess I'll suck it up and keep moving! 

I can't complain about this little venture to Wyoming....I love getting to eat anteloupe chili....so I'll send him off on Friday with a good luck hug & kiss and a good job rear tap....He better bring home a lot of anteloupe!!!

Not a baby anymore...

and that is why my stomach hurts when I have to clean up your poop....your explosive poop!  Those are the words that I uttered to my dear boy Hunter.  Last night I'd planned on having a nice late dinner and time with the hubby..............well that didn't happen.  Shortly after putting the kids to bed last night we were alerted to the tummy issues of Hunter boy...........2 pairs of underwear and 2 showers later he's back to bed.  Then Jaylin is up with a headache....she got hit in the head with a softball Saturday and has had a headache ever since....I'm starting to worry a little.....we will see how it goes and go to the Dr. if we need to. 

By the time I made it to bed I was out as soon as my head hit the pillow.  I woke up this morning hoping to get a workout in and hoping that the kids would feel better.........nope.  As soon as I get out of my bedroom I could hear Hunter in the upstairs bathroom....it was loud.  I knew then that at least one kid would be at home sick today.......by the time I get upstairs I find Jaylin sitting in the floor of her room brushing her hair and crying because her head hurt and she didn't want to miss school.  So now I've got two sick kids and set about the task of medicating (as much as one can in this situation which equates to a tylenol for Jaylin) and notifying teachers and schools.

Hunter's 1st grade teacher is great!  She is going to get his work ready so that I can pick it up after lunch - we don't want him to be overwhelmed with homework tomorrow so we'll get caught up this evening.  As far as Jaylin, well apparently in the 5th grade they don't want to send work home unless you've missed for three days....I'm a little bummed that we can't pick stuff up this afternoon....because that means that homework tomorrow is going to be a curse word.  Hoping that this is over soon!

I'm off to clean up poop....and my stomach hurts at the thought of it!  I love my kids, really I do - I just can't clean up big kid poop.  Babies - no problem.  Once you are potty trained you are on your own....well at least I wish that they were....oh the things we do for our children!

Weekend over!?!?

Weekends always seem to fly by....I still need another day to really feel like I've rested up at all!  Oh well...I guess I'll just suck it up and go with it! :) 

The reasons why my weekend passed so quickly:

1.  First softball practice for the 10U team that I am co coaching - I am pretty excited....we have some young girls, but have about 5 veterans that will be good examples for our younger girls.  The girls selected our team name and we are the...........Blue Angels!  :)  I'm so excited!

2.  Spent the second half of day (Saturday) feeling crummy - upset tummy.  Actually had an early night for once!

3.  Still felt sick this morning so I stayed home and cleaned house a little (spent most of my time on the couch).

4.  Rick, Jaylin & Hunter went on a squirrel hunting adventure and brought back 1 squirrel for me to cook up.

5.  Went out for a late lunch.

6.  Grocery shopping trip - lasted 2 hours.

7.  The rest of my day has been spent watching football. 

How I'm about to use the rest of my weekend time:

1.  About to start watching the Eagles play the Falcons....and get ready for an early workout and then work tomorrow.

2.  Late Dinner with the hubby - sending the kids to bed in one hour and the rest of his time is mine. 

3. I may even try to squeeze in one of my items from the Ways to Spend 25 minute list - and I don't mean washing the dishes...lol. Yes, I think I will....a great way to close out the weekend! 

25 minutes....

There are many things that you can accomplish in 25 minutes and as I sit here watching Legends of the Fall I thought I might share them here. Ok - this may be the most pointless post ever but oh well.

1. Clean the kitchen.
2. 2 10 minute solution pilates workouts and 5 minutes of cool down.
3. Unplanned Mom & Dad "time" with 5 minutes of snuggle time. (One of my faves- a highly recommended use of 25 minutes).
4. A nice run to clear the mind.
5. Family fun reading time.
6. Give yourself a nice pedicure.
7. Look through old photo albums and wish for the body of youth.
8. Write a thoughtful love letter to your mate.
9. Spend a little time with God.
10. Watch a little of a favorite old movie. (this could lead to watching the whole thing!)


That's it for now. What can you accomplish in 25 minutes?

Tired...

if I didn't KNOW better, I would think that I was pregnant.  I am that kind of tired.  The kind of tired that hits about 3:30  and makes you want to go take a nap.  I think that I have yawned for the last 20 minutes!  I need sleep!  I am just not getting enough rest.  I haven't been able to get up in the mornings....so no working out this past week...not once!  I'm hoping to get a run in this evening and one in the morning - I think it will make me feel better all day.   We shall see. 

It's been a good day - I've been able to make calls about students reciving scholarship awards (yay!) - some of those calls to friends which always makes me happy, I spent 2 1/2 hours with students, and even had time to help someone get a job today.  It's been a good day.  But I am ready for a nap.  Think I'm leaving the office early today...I still got over 8 hours in, just not sitting around until 5.  I need a power nap!

Yaaaaawwwwwnnnnnn!  Yup, it's time to call it a day.  I've got a long day of standing on my feet talking to 7th graders 8-2 - I've got to teach them about their learning styles and the joys of participating in a TRIO program.  Good times!

9.11.01 Never Forget

The morning of September 11th, 2001 I was up nursing my 2 week old daughter.  As Rick and I watched in horror he said the most scary words a military spouse can hear:  "We are going to war."  Those 5 words added dread to my crazy emotions.  I can remember being so scared, sad and shocked in those first hours.  I often think about those families that lost loved ones....I think about them more than on 9.11.  As a military spouse and spouse of a public servant, I think about  how quickly one's life can change.  I spent 17 months of my life wondering if my soldier was going to make it home alive in 2003 and cried tears of joy and relief when we welcomed his unit home. 

Monday I read a book written by a 9.11 widow ("Where You Left Me") and was touched by her story.  When I look at my children, I think about what their life would be like without their father and it scares me.  I hope that is something that we never have to face, but know that it is a very real possibility when I think about the career paths he's chosen. 

September 11th reminds me to be thankful for those men and women that our first responders and members of our armed forces, but it also reminds me about the strength that we have as a country and it makes me proud.  I am reminded to hug my children tight as I put them to bed, to remind my spouse how much he is loved, and to thank God for all that I've been given.

I will be thinking and praying for the families of those who were lost today, as well as those men and women in uniform who have paid the ultimate sacrifice.  I will also continue to pray for God's continued grace in my life and for our country.

I will never forget.

Sabrina PhD?!?

I just received a letter of acceptance to the Educational Psychology PhD program!  I applied to a couple of schools...the traditional brick & mortar and an online program.  The online program is leading in the polls due to may extremely busy schedule.  There were still be 4 mandatory residencies (each 4 days each) and 4 that can be done either in person or via skype/web cam.  There are so many thoughts running through my head...holy cow!  This is a big step!  Am I really ready?  I am excited, scared, nervous, excited, terrified....

What an accomplishment this would be for me.... and my family.  Wow.  I'll have to wait for the hubby to come home tomorrow (military commitments) to push the accept button. 

Love this guy....

Missing the hubby...drill weekends are always lonely.

Isn't he cute?  There really is something about a man in uniform....

Uggghhhh!!!

Guess who is not going to be getting up at 5:00...yes you guessed it...Me.  I am just now seeing my little nieces off for the night....sometimes I wish I could just slap people.....really....just slap them.

And to think my crankiness from earlier is gone.  Thank goodness...

On another not Hunter boy lost his very first tooth today...he looks so sweet!  The tooth fairy has been here and let me just say....I want to put a tooth under my pillow!  Hunter is going to be one happy little boy!  He was so excited to go to bed tonight.  He was asleep before 7:50...he doesn't usually go until 8:32 (his negotiated bedtime - up two minutes from last year - I know when to pick my battles).

Off for a little snuggle time and then sleep for me!  Long day tomorrow!

CRANKY

Lookout world...I.AM.CRANKY.  I'm usually easy going, but I can already tell that I am just too cranky for words!!!  Hoping that I don't lose it today....let's see if I can make it! 

I'm in one of those ranting moods...am just going to fight the urge to gripe.  Today.

Here's to hoping that it gets better.

Why am I awake?

I should be in bed...why am I still up knowing that I have an EARLY morning?  The bedding is still in the dryer.  I'm hoping that hubs will have mercy on me and make the bed while I type this post.  A good wife would get up and make the bed, but I'm practicing being selfish and lazy....not really - I plan on making the bed as soon as I complete this post.  Really. 

The three day weekend was a nice one...calm and quiet.  I managed to do mostly nothing, except for my adventure in the deer woods and hanging a tree stand.  Hanging tree stands are work...I was suprprised at how much work there was to be done.  I'm excited to venture out into the world of hunting this season...not sure how I'll be with a yummy deer in my sights, but hopefully my love for deer jerky will help me get one...we shall see! I am really going to enjoy spending time with Rick more than anything and want to be a good student.  I am sure that there will be lots of hunting stories to come.

I need to hit the sack...a long day in store - early workout and late night (Jaylin has a double header).  I'm off to bed...here's to hoping I wake up when my alarm goes off the first time.

It's about to get ugly...

Rick is changing over to the evening shift - sucks for family time :(  3 -11  He won't see the kids except for the hour he gets for dinner....which means I'm going to have to be on point with the dinner schedule (he grabs the dinner break when he can get it...so dinner will need to be ready by 6 - gives me 45 minutes to get home from work and have it on the table).  I am about to enter the super organized phase of my life (for the year).
The daily schedule will be as follows:
5:00 AM - Up and out the door for "my time" - GYM
5:15 - 6:30AM Workout (Run & Weight train 5 days a week)
6:45 - 7:25AM Shower/Get Kids Off to School
7:40 - 5:00PM Work (Lunch with the hubby 4 days a week)
5:15 - 6:00 PM Figure out and Prepare Dinner/Check homework
6:30 - 8:30PM  Jaylin's Softball Practice (M&Thurs)
5:00 - 10:30 PM Jaylin's Softball games in Atoka (Tues only)
8:30 - 9:00 PM Bath time for Kids
9:00 - 10:00 PM Quiet time for me - wind down before bed.
10:30 PM  Bedtime
11:15 - 11:30 PM Wake up and make sure Rick had a good evening - touch base.

This is going to be interesting.....and I've made application for a doctorate program (Educational Psychology) -  with a Winter Trimester Start (Dec. 4  or 5) so then I'll throw in a little homework if all goes well. 

PS - my applying for the doctorate program is our little secret ;) 

Let's see how long I can keep up with this schedule!  Lord help me now!

Are you READY?

I'm ready for football! :)  My Sooners, My Jets, My SpiderPigs, and TEAM FORD - I am ready for the games to begin!

I love football...I can watch it live or on television...I do not care!  I LOVE football season!

I'm off to get ready for a gathering with FRIENDS...should be fun!

Boomer Sooner!